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slit your wrists and move on
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Maybe in a little while
just long enough to see you smiling
cuz happiness is so underrated
I say shit like this just to piss you off
but it's always--up and down
it's always--who you know
I'm sorry but I am who I am :)

Don't you settle for less
we're still dancing
when the lights turned on
it's always down and out
I'm always up and down
it's always--"I'm sorry"
but if you're still dancing when the sun comes up
I'm going to be tripping down the big streets low
do you want to come down?
Aug 17 16 - Every Day
passed on my way of living
and the doldrums

I'm here
but I'm not
can't think of any
other way of living
there is just this

I'm soft
but I'm not
not finding anyone
for talking
but stopped answering
my texts

all I'm doing with my life now
is happening on screens
on some other person's screen

I'm sad
but I'm glad
can't feel anything
but dreaming
but I'm not sleeping
much at all

how could it be the same person
who left before the fall
is something I spend my time
analyzing

I'm here
but I'm not
can't think of any
other way of living
there is just this
Jul 26 16 - MDMAlways
Before the darkness fades
we've got some time to kill
we fucked it up time and again
we'll have to kill ourselves
to really be alive
sometimes I feel I'm dying
I'm always by your side
I'm always by your side
(In my dreams)

And so right through goodbyes
I ever saw right through to you
we're never sober anymore
we're just murderers
also right through goodbyes
I ever saw right through me too
I don't feel sober if you're near

Be I a man below
your tall banner
it's all the same shit now
alone and staring into you
I'm never sober if you're near
I'll never wanna stop
Also right through goodbyes
I ever saw right into you
I'm never sober if you're here
Jul 20 15 - Same old story
Seems like the same old story
happening over and over
there's no meaning left now but
I confess I do love drama

instead of waking up
in someone else's bed
not really knowing if I'm awake
or in some alternate world
All I can say is, some fights
you're still angry about
the morning after
others totally not

I want a new story
Don't you?
Feb 16 15 - Recap
A BRIEF HISTORY OF MY HOMEMADE VALENTINES

2010 (http://sleepy-boy.livejournal.com/103876.html)

This was the first Valentine, that start of a tradition. Recipient was nonplussed.
Me: Did you get my email this morning?
Partner: *blank expression*
Me: Didn't find it funny?
Partner: Didn't understand it.

2014 (http://sleepy-boy.livejournal.com/121976.html)

A few years later, made up for lost time by making 3. Recipient was mortified.
Me: Did you get my email?
Partner: The valentines?
Me: What'd you think?
Partner: Yeah, that was weird. *look of disgust*

2015 (http://sleepy-boy.livejournal.com/122757.html)

My first success.
Me: *sends a picture text*
Partner: Shut up that's awesome
Mar 02 14 - null blissful
darkest buildings I could even think I
don't need the drugs to find a hideout
what do I have to do but even I do wrong
I'd like to get you and then get gone
I get you, I could even let you in
don't know why I should try fight you
one thing only can i say right now,
"nothing good getttsdsxklshadklfjdag;ldk :("
"nothing good gets done wearing frowns"
but it owns space it owns space
and it will move in your soul
until you think you should die
but it's keeping you light
slowly, slowly all the way to right down
and down and down it goes
slowly, slowly all the way to the ground
nothingness doesn't hold a prayer
but it holds space that owns space
and it will move in your soul
until you think you should die
but it's keeping you light
Feb 24 14 - Smile Partner
Inside we're always levitating

when we'd sat down at the broken piano
my spirits were low
and took you out to Red Lobster
but lonelier than ever

if only we'd stop worrying
about the shit stains in our underwear
the sky could be huge again

and my brain was all empty
until at the end of the night
you turned to me and said,
"your teeth are all crooked,
what a beautiful smile."
Jan 09 14 - Well then?
Has anyone really been so far even as decided to use even go want to do look more like?
Laddad Mar 28. 2017, 6:22 am GMT.